LIFE

Hm... yeah, I know that title can be intimidating. But the truth of the matter is, everyday when you and I wake up we face another episode in the hit TV Drama called LIFE. From its crazy plots and cliff hangers, to its characters twist and turns, everything about life keeps us interested. That is why we wake up in the morning. Am I right? As the deep thinker I would like to believe I am, at times I find myself letting my mind get the best of me. We all know how powerful the mind can be, so sometimes to relieve the stress, I write. Now, don't call me a Steven King, and def don't call me a Dr. Seuss, but I would also like to believe my writing skills are up to par of a 19 year old college student. LOL! Whatever that means...

Recently, I have been thinking about this Hit TV Show "Life". Where I am right now to where I want to be. Last year this time, if you were to ask me the same questions, I think you would've not only got another type of answer, but you'd be talking to another person. A young woman who still hadn't expierenced the trials and tribulations of LIFE. Today, I'm still untainted to the world extremeties, but I have seen my share. Give or take. So, as I ask myself today where I want to be, I really cannot give you a clear and definite answer.

I go to one of the greatest schools in the country in a promising field where I know I am almost garenteed a job when I graduate. I have the ability to make the amount of money that you and I probably dreamed of. Now, granted my dreams may not be yours, but I want to live comfortably (get my drift?) and I know I am more than capable of doing so. But really, to tell you the truth, with all that said, I never want to be one of those people who do what they "just for the money." I have a talent, I have a passion, so therefore I want to make the best of it, even if I am not being paid 5+ figures. I love the innocents of children.. So yeah, I want to be one of the worlds top Editoral/Fashion Photographers who owns her own firm and prints her own magazine - yeah. But if I would save the innocence of one child before ANY of that. True story.

I watch my roommate (who has a PhD, doing the DAMN THING) wake up every morning before the sun rises, which means before I wake up, commutes, goes to work, and come home AFTER the sun goes down. She has everything. Owns her home, shops anytimes she wants, anything she can ask for. But I wondered is she really "happy". So I asked her, being the curious person I am. And her response was, "Well, you know what, I think I do it for the money..."

When she said that, I understood it all. Some people sacrifice their happiness for the dollar bill.

Damn...

What would life be if people didn't get money for their professions? For instance, a doctor. If a doctor didn't get paid, would he be just as happy to operate on you if he was? Would he save YOUR life if he wasn't seeing that check at the end of the week? That shit sucks if you think about it. Because everyone knows they do a better job if their getting some reward at the end of it all. Its like a trained dog. That pup knows you're bout to give him a kibble and bit, so he'll do whatever the hell you want him to do, just so he can taste that shit in his mouth. Digg me.

So I mean, with that being said I fight a battle in my head everyday thinking where I want my life to take me. I know so many people, who can take me down any avenue of life that I please. I have a group of family and friends who support me and my any endeavor, and I love them with all my heart. I am attempting to once again build that strong relationship I had with the higher power. So what can hold me back, except myself?

Life is an interesting. You go through so many different seasons, and when you look back at it all it is is memories. So therefore, its your choice if you want to have good memories or bad memories. Nothing you do is by chance. Everything happens for a reason. I just pray everyone (including myself) makes those choices that'll bring them closer to their biggest most highest dream. Because we are all able to accomplish anything we want.

Today, I was watching the National Geographics channel (if anyone knows me, they know I'm really REALLY a geek/nerd at heart) and on there was a man who ran marathons. And, no it was not your "normal everyday" marathon - he ran it in the Artic..... BAREFOOT and Shirtless.

At first, I looked at him and said to myself, "This damn white boy!!" But then I listened to his story, and his ability to train his mind to actually accomplish this was amazing. Mind you, its a negative 15-18 degrees outside, and homeboy is running barefoot like he's on Miami Beach! The medic told him he was going to loose his toes because he had gotten such horrible frost bite that no more circulation was running through his feet. After a week, his feet were back to normal, and he was fine. It truly amazed me, and the statement that resinated in my head was when he said, "The reason my feet went back to normal, is because I kept telling myself positive thoughts about how much I wanted to walk again, how much I wanted to tackle my next task - Mt. Everest."

The next shot was him running up Mt. Everest.

Purely inspirational.

Stay positive people. Don't let he/she tell you can't do it. Believe you and me - you can. I don't know what the future holds, but some damage is going to be done with our generation. (in a good way) So many people are waking up.. Its a beautiful sight. I'm going to bed now. 7am work.

A lil glimpse of my mind and from my heart of hearts,
-Milah.b the Dreamer